aRRRGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sy tau saya muda..
sy tau sy kurang pengalaman segala..
sy tau sy kurang sifat kepimpinan..

awk kena faham, awk dibawah sy
awk kena faham , awk staf sy
awk kena faham, walaupun awk tua, awk kena terima arahan or apa2 keja yg sy bagi..

sy tau awk makan garam dulu (yeke?)
sy tau awk tau segala (yeke?)

tak kan nak bagi keja , awk nak marah
tak kan sy tegur ckit , awk nak melenting

nak marah pun ada, nak nangis pun ada,
nape la susah sgt nak terima segala perubahan
sy dpat post nie sbb sy layak,
bukan rampas jawatan dr awk,
walau sy tau ,once upon a time mmg awk yg settle segala
tapi bkn sy yg decide penjwatan apa suma..
KENAPA SUSAH SGT NAK TERIMA?????????

sgt susah hati, sgt sedih ,segala macam rasa ada
cam mana nak jadi ketua yg tegas?
cam mana nak jadi ketua yg adil?
cam mana nak jadi ketua yg cekap?

ada kah sy tiada ciri2 kesemuanya?

it really hurt so much when our boss keep saying/criticising/condemning my leadership style
...repeatedly blaming for all the mistakes done.. (did she ever heard of 'people learn frm mistake?)
...keep saying she alway spoon feeds me...
--keep saying i never monitor my staffs..

sgt sedih..moga sy mampu belajar segala dgn cepat, moga mampu jadi ketua yg tegas

sgt down skrng...putus asa pun ada..

Best of the Best

these few days, line tenet sgt mendukacitakan n mengesak ati...
by d way, just nak update so tht my girl knows one day, dia dah ada best fren sejak dr dalam pwut lagi...
she is elisha adrianna...beza 3 minggu je usia frm maira ..
mak esha n mak maira pegnen sama2,...
gi kuar makan sama...ngidam benda sama

Mari beriadah...

Gambar 2 semer sgt basi...taken slbm i realised im pregnant..
on this day..mak bapak humaira tiba2 punya kesedaran betapa lemak2 telah membusut
lemak baru..lemak lama...berlumba2 bersatu dgn pembuluh darah

Budak kecik sangat happy...leh jenjalan jauh dr rumah
actually bukan berjogging ye..
(mak humaira tak larat..mengah2 ..tak cukup nafas)
so..hanya mampu berjalan je pusing2

bapak budak yg baru sedar diri luggage makin sarat

mak budak alah kamera..
mak dan anak mampu jalan seraon je..surrender

amik angin rumah makcik..cukup rasaaaa!!

that was the 1st n the last (jogging?) activity in 2009...
skrng mak humaira merasa hazab yang amat
berat yg melampau
6 bln lagi entah cam mane bodi haku..
( sgt sedih..sedih :( )

Ucu Pitiah

Her name is Fitriyah Aisyah...i really adore this girl...waktu masih baby, slalu gak ulang alik ke rumah diorang ,took care of her, mandikan , susukan dia..(cuci berak je tk, geli la)
Pernah gak, when she was 1 1/2 yrs, dia bancuh susu sendiri...i was so amazed with her capibilities!!...but takde le expect perfection..susu tumpah segala...pastu dia tuang air mineral je...aku tengok dlm botol rasa nak muntah...dgn susunya timbul..

Now she is 5 years..very mature for her age...now its her time to take really good care of my girl...
my girl also adores her...keep calling her "piah...piah"...

but then , budak-budak..,what do u expect...Kejap baik..

kejap lg berkelai,berebut kerusi la..berebut buku la...

Maira la paling hebat, she think she is too good to share with others..hehe

But i heart them both...really do..
moga kamu berdua jadi anak2 berguna...dunia akhirat
pandai
cerdik
cantik (pada mata sy)
AMIN

1st attempt

Tak penah2 masuk contest...apa2 contest pon...selama nie syiok giler tengok contestants n pemenang mana2 kontes yg ada ..tapi keinginan nak join skali nadai...

but thn , perasaaan nak join today sgt mbuak2..membara...y dont i gv a try..tak menang pon takpe la weh...tak rugi kan mencuba

nama contest the most cutest with smile baby anjuran &ita Maternity Online Store..Menarik contest nie..even items yg owner nie jual pon cantik2..
but thn...cuba ,jgn tak cuba..tapi tue la..ropa2nya gambo budak kecik senyum cam mustahil je ada...kebyakn gmbr muka sedih,muka marah,meradang lak byk..kalu tak pun muka jgn-kaco-aku-bz..heh!!nasib baik jumpa sekeping..tue pon cam ketawa tak jadi,idong kembang,mata cepet,..apa2 pun ,try je la

OHHH KApKek

Rasa nak KUAR air mata, air idong wehss...........
tetiba air liur cam melimpah ruah ...tingin sesangat nak makan kapkek..!!!not just 'cupcakes' but nak cupcake specially made by jiran belakang rumah......waaaaaaaaaaAAAAA
bukan nak esok, bukan malam nie OR sejam lagi..but RITE NOW!!!
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REALLY HATE this feeling!! ada ka tok spycho jak ooo?? mentang2 konon2 mengidam...dah set kat mind..........................i need something/some food to be called as mengidam???
is it due to the hormon changes.??..up n down ..naik shooting pastu menjunam kebawah??
Or alasan sbb dasar boyak maha bongan.....nak makan kek!!

I dont care!!!as long as i can get the stocks!!!
Keep sms ing online kapkek owner.....
~~~~~~~~~~~~~Eda my saviour!!!!huhu...
_____________i dont care if there is no topping,no deco waht so ever!!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~As Long As My BOngan Can be Satisfy!!
REALLY BONGAN!!

Alhamdulillah

Bersyukur Allah kurniakan kesuburan for me...

Alhamdulillah

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7 months to go...

maira will hv her adik...

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Setakat nie, segala2 nya ok..

mabuk kurang,ngidam pun xda le sgt...

masak memasak tetiba melampau rajin..

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Ya Allah, moga dipermudahkan sampai beranak kelak..Amin

rehat2

Been awhile rasanya kitaorg amik cuti , check in hotel...resting my mind, my body , my soul..
phew..what a relieved..mmg dah bertekad, once check in..fully utilised the time period till check out..hehe..langsung tak kuar pun walaupun rumah lebih kuraang 20 min je dr hotel..

the girl is so excited..hehe ...dia survey setiap bilik...masuk bilik kuar bilik..cam QC..

-Jakun sungguh budak kecik-

master bedroom..very cozy n comfortable

rasa singkat je masa kalau bab bercuti2 nie...xpe la maira..next time kita g cuti jauh ckit..huhuh

Super Slow

its the time!(part 4)

Nothing much to say...it just tht i love & treasure every moment i spend with my lil princess..

persoalan nya sekarang.....is it the rite time for me to give her adik?hew hew
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i m mentally prepared..but not pysically..huhu
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so i guess it is the right time for me to be productive..to be gatal2 ckit with me hubby ..
so ptg nie be romantic,kelip2 kan mata to him..ewwwwwww!!!

**recent photos of lil one..

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back to the time...
rindu la saat2 lil one duk senyap2 lam playmat..


4m
belajar meniarap
6m

6m7m

entah nape jiwa gelora nak refill blog skrg tengah berapi2...maybe bila menatap ,merenung muka budak kecik mlm2, hati bertekad, i perlu express my whole feeling towards her...

skrng nie mmg takde la my girl nak ngadap laaptop , godek2 n baca all this craps..but then, who knows mybe one day, bila budak kecik dah besar, dah dewasa , she will take her precious time n baca blog mama yg merapu2 nie...all i know is is really adore this lil precious girl of mine, small version of my botak, love her dearly...i will do everything for her even it will cost my life